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Tuesday, January 27, 2004 I have no idea what I'm going to write about. I haven't updated in a while, so I thought I should. So here goes my rambling: I'm done with school! I took my last final today, it was for french. I found it pretty easy. Then I had to go down to the band room to do my "jury". I have no idea why she calls it that. Basically, you play all your major scales and she grades you. Big whoop. I still don't get why it's called a "jury", but hell, whatever floats her boat. So long as I get a good grade, I'm happy. Oh what else has gone on in my mundane life? OH! The family and I might soon be re-joined with a long-lost relative (no, we're not going on Oprah or Montel). Aparantly, my uncle (mother's brother) had a son with some other girl not long before he got together with his wife. This child's mother wouldn't let him meet the family, she was afraid that we'd try to take custody of him or some stupid thing like that. Anyway, this kid is all grown up now, 29 or 30 years old, and has expressed interest in meeting his father's parents. His name is Jonathan, he lives in Florida, and is married and has a kid. His birth-father passed away before I was born, but not before having 2 more kids. So this Jonathan has a brother and a sister that he never knew (and seeing how he's older than them, Ange is no longer the oldest grand-child). Hopefully he comes around and meets everyone before I move out to Colorado. Or else I'll never meet him. I can only imagine how Chris and Ange are feeling about meeting their older half-brother. I know how much I want to meet mine, but I have no way to get started. The only imformation I have on him is his birth parents' names, and the fact that they put him up for adoption because they were too young to raise a kid, and he's probably around 27 or 28 by now. YAY! It sucks, because his birth-mother lives in California, and is not in contact with us (why would she be?). And our birth-father is dead. So I can't go to either of them for information. Maybe when I'm 18 or so I'll try one of those programs that helps people track down missing family members (as if I don't already have enough). Did I mention yet that Matt's being deployed? Yeah, we don't know exactly when, or where, or for how long. All we know is he's leaving probably sometime this year. Which sucks, because we don't know if we can get married in August or not. FUN! I hate the military. Anywho... I think I'm off to do some reading, or watching mindless TV. There's mint chocolate chip ice cream in the freezer and it's calling to me. Niki ran away at 05:26 p.m. Thursday, January 22, 2004 Help me! Dad has this desktop dyno program that he likes to use, but it runs through DOS. On this computer (which is a dell, if that helps), I have no idea how to get out of Windows and into DOS. Mom doesn't know how, and lord knows dad doesn't know how. Is it possible? If it is, how in the fuck do I do it!? breathes Sorry, I'm incredibly computer illiterate, and I have no idea how to do this stuff. Niki ran away at 05:50 p.m. Wednesday, January 21, 2004 Where will you go? Will you return? or will death swoop in, like a malicious hawk? Will the wind still move? Will the world turn 'round? Will I still breathe, if you are gone? WIll there be a sound? Will a creature blink? Will the waves still crash, on a sandy beach? You're a pure light that warms my days. If the light blinks out, Will I still live? Niki ran away at 07:38 p.m. Wednesday, January 21, 2004 Matt told me some great news last night concerning his job. There is a possibility that they will let him re-train into a different field of work. This is different from cross-training becuase you have to be in your job for a year and a half to cross-train. But for re-training, I believe he'll be able to do it as soon as the paper work is finished. Which should take probably a month or two knowning the government. He's going to talk to people today on his lunch break, so I haven't found anything out yet seeing how it's barely 2 out there and he's not home yet. He wants to re-train into intelligence, which means he'll have to go to tech school again, where ever the intelligence tech school is. Of course that's a thing I'll probably not be allowed to share with anyone, if Matt's even allowed to share it with me. Of course, it means we won't be able to be married this summer because they're not allowed to take leave during tech school, but he is allowed to have visitors. So at least I'll be able to see him if I can afford it. Maybe. But I consider this a small price to pay if it means he won't be deployed to Iraq to get shot at. If all this goes through, and we're pretty confident it will, I don't know what I'll do. I think I might take a semester at ACC just to get me started, and if his tech school lasts past June 2005, I'll join dance again. I've done 14 years, why not 15? Nothing is set in stone, I'm just running ideas through my head. This week has gone fairly well for me. It's my last week of high school ever, and of course I'm stressed, but it's ok. Because I know that after tomorrow, I won't have to worry about it. I'm passing all my classes, I don't think I'm going to fail my finals, everything is good. My life is in a good state right now, and that makes me happy ^.^ Now I'm going to go fuck it all up by getting a job. Niki ran away at 03:56 p.m. Tuesday, January 20, 2004 Dear god this is awful, I'm watching American Idol, and they're in the audition stage. There was some random guy, and these are the lyrics he was singing: "Your body's so fine, I dont' care that you're 99. Your body all wrinkly, your hair so white, I'm lovin' a granny tonight" twitch Niki ran away at 08:31 p.m. Saturday, January 17, 2004 This is house is so ghetto. The pipe to the washing machine decided to freeze up Tuesday, we didnt' get it thawed until today. Dad didn't want to thaw it until we were ready to do laundry. Then the kitchen sink decided to freeze or clog or something, we still don't know what's wrong with it, and it almost overflowed when we were running the dishwasher (it's one of the ones you have to hook to the faucet in the sink). We tried to turn the faucet off, and it decided it didn't want to turn off. So we got the wet-dry vac to suck the water out of the sink, some of the water is still in the sink, the wet-dry vac is still in the kitchen, and the end of the hose is still in the sink. Needless to say, my house is pretty ghetto. Then there's the matter of the front door. For quite a while, you didnt' need to turn the knob to open the door, because there was no plate thing that the latch went into. It was this big broken gap thing. Reason being that the door jammed one day and we couldn't open it, and dad got pissed off. He went out the back door and kicked the front door open, and broke it. So that was ghetto for a while. Then instead of going to get the right parts for the door, he took a metal bar and screwed it in where the door would latch. He called it "nigger-rigging". Tell me I don't live in a ghetto house. We have a "nigger-rigged" door, frozen pipes that won't thaw out even when we put the salamander heater under the house, and one side of our house has no heat. Not to mention, tall people can wear our ceiling fans as hats. Hell, I can touch our ceiling in certain parts of our house. And we have mice sometimes. Randomness: I think it would be absolutely hilarious to answer a telemarketing call like a little kid. Just muster up your best little kid voice and say "hi" to everything they say. They ask you where your mommy and daddy are and you just say "hi". Just see how long it takes them to hang up on you. Niki ran away at 06:12 p.m. Friday, January 16, 2004 Dude, this is so not fair. Jon's going to Jamaica for 6 days in May. I want to kick him. Aparantly Maegan's aunt bought them a 6 day pass. And it's so not fair. They're going to be staying here. And it's just gorgeous... I want to go! Anyway, enough bitching, must get back to my english homework. Which equally sucks, seeing how I only have 3 school days left, and I have 3 solid days of homework before I get to them. >.< Anywho, enough out of me. Niki ran away at 04:34 p.m. Thursday, January 15, 2004 Ok, either something is wrong with my internet, or with the server that my graphic is on, because it won't load on my computer at the moment. Probably just the crappy AOL internet connection as usual. Nevermind, it works now. walks off mumbling something about AOL Niki ran away at 08:20 p.m. Thursday, January 15, 2004 Interesting new developments at dance class tonight. Scott Rosenbrock is now Danielle's mother. And Erika knows a woman who crosses her legs when she sneezes so she doesn't piss her pants. Niki ran away at 08:18 p.m. Thursday, January 15, 2004 This is driving me insane. It's eating at my mind and making me feel like I'm going to break down any second. But I can't talk about it, I'm not supposed to know. He'd get in deep shit if it got out, even to my closest friends. Hell I can't even write it down in case it gets read by someone. All I can do is put on a happy face and pretend nothing's bothering me, because it's so tempting to tell. Niki ran away at 06:08 p.m. Monday, January 12, 2004 God I'm such a quiz whore. I've decided to make a quiz blog instead of posting them all in this one. Just in case any one is interested in the stupid quizzes I take. Niki ran away at 06:59 p.m. Monday, January 12, 2004 Odd'ness. I can't get to Lau's blog, it keeps telling me it can't find the server or some shit like that. I was going to stalk her and harass her about comments, but I guess I can't o.O I had a dentist appointment today, to get a cavity filled. I think the dentist poked a hole in my tooth on purpose because I never had a cavity before I started going to the dentist. And if it had been there before, he'd have taken care of it before he put my braces on, not after I got them taken off. So I really think he put it there on purpose. And now my fucking tooth hurts, I can't open my mouth wide enough to put a spoonfull of pudding in there without it hurting. Which sucks, because I'm fucking hungry. And I refuse to take pills. So I guess I'll just have to suffer. My aunt called last night, she heard that Matt and I are getting married. I didn't want to tell her because I thought she'd go off on some tangent about how I'm too smart not to go to college and that I'm too young to get married and blah blah blah, but she didn't. She actually offered to help in any way she could with the planning and decorating and all that. That shocked the hell out of me, I really thought she was going to tell me to go to college. When the college issue first came up a while ago, she actually told mom to make me go to college. As if that's possible. shrug Fucking OW. I hate the dentist. I didn't mind it before, but when they start fucking with my teeth and poking holes everywhere, I have a problem with that. And of course he wants me to come in for a filling, so he can conveniently find another hole. Stupid dentists. I need comments. Badly. And I'm off now, must blog hop. Niki ran away at 06:04 p.m. Sunday, January 11, 2004 Drools I love my new layout, Lau. Thank you! I don't think I'll ever want to change it again. And of course, knowing you, you'll change it on me just to mess with my head. I think I'm going to go save the code for it now, just so I can change it back if you do do that to me. Today was a fairly productive day, mom and grandma and I went fabric shopping for dresses. I forgot how much each individual fabric cost, but the total was somewhere around $135... expensive'ness. So we can start on dresses now, and that makes me happy. Anywho, I'm off now. Bed is good, I'm kind of tired, I have school in the morning. Bleh. I need comments! Niki ran away at 10:41 p.m. Monday, January 5, 2004 ... Interesting Jon actually talked to me, and he actually seemed interested in what I had to say for once. Of coruse, he had to play the Catlin card, but I'm learning not to let it bother me. .... Interesting. Niki ran away at 06:29 p.m. Monday, January 5, 2004 For some odd reason my layout won't work on my computer. In any case, figured it was too long, archived again. I finish school in exactly 13 school days ^____________^ Of course, I'll probably have to come in for a final or two, but that's no biggie. Then I can start looking for a job (oh joy). Of course, I won't be able to start work until the end of February, because I've booked a flight to Colorado to see Matt for a couple weeks. It's just about the only oportunity I have to see him, because in Marcha and April I'll (hopefully) have a job and dance class. May is waaay too busy to go anywhere for more than 3 minutes because of birthdays, photo shoots, dress rehearsals, and now my cousin is getting married on May 15. June is graduation and dance recital. July is a couple birthdays and most likely some sort of bridal shower thing. And then August he'll be coming home. Damn... that's a 6 month stretch without him.... I can do it. On a happy note, at least my cousin seems to be speaking to the family lately. He hasn't come around much in the past year, but at least he's come around. He called grandma this morning and told her he's getting married. Then she told him I'm getting married, and he kinda freaked out at that one. Seeing as how his only real memories of me are from when I was a little kid, since he just randomly decided to ignore the family for years at a time. Well, there was a reason, but I'm not getting into it. The good thing is that he's divorced from April (who wasn't the friendliest person in the world), and now he seems to have found himself a good one. And the odd thing is his fiance's sister is a Staff Sergeant in the Air Force academy near Peterson, which is where Matt is stationed. sings IIIIt's a small world aaaaaaafter aaaallll stops singing Anywho, that's the update on my ever-so-exciting life. Niki ran away at 05:20 p.m.

I'm done with school!