Monday, December 29, 2003
you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.
which happy bunny are you?
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I have got to stop taking these friggin quizzes.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 05:15 p.m.
Thursday, December 25, 2003
How evil are you?
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.
"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."
Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.
As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p
What kind of kiss are you?
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Tomboy
What's your sexual appeal?
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You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.
Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Purple! You have purple eyes! You're a dreamer,
artist, poet, whatever. You enjoy all forms of
art and literature, and tend to be quite good
at creating them as well.
What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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Note to self: stop taking quizzes
What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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You're Shirley Manson, you saucy girl.
What sexy girl are you
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You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.
What feeling do you represent?
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borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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goddess of the moon. You stand for love and
wisdom.You are light up the night sky
What beutiful goddess are you?(with anime pics!)
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The moon is pretty. God, I have to stop taking these damn quizzes!
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Ok, I'm really done now. I need sleep. Sleep is good.
Oh yeah! I got Monty Python and the Holy Grail for Christmas! John is the greatest (even though he's a LIAR!)
I also got one of those huge body pillows, so I think I'll go sleep on it now.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 11:57 p.m.
Thursday, December 25, 2003
STUPID MSN!!
I have no idea how it happened, but it did. I think it has something to do with the virus padre got. Padre being Matt's dad.
Help me out here, tell me if I'm wrong. I had downloaded MSN on his computer a while ago looking for Laura to ask her something. Since it wasn't on his computer before, my screen name became the default screen name that his MSN automatically signed in as when they boot up the computer. Padre didn't get around to changing it. He got a virus on his computer that deleted MSN among other files. When I just went to sign on MSN here at home, all my contacts on my contact list were deleted, and my name didn't appear as "BrightEyes", it appeared as "Padre", which was the name of a few files on his computer.
I think that because it was my screen name on his MSN, it somehow jumbled a few files together, screwing up my account, before his anti-V zapped it. Is that possible? Am I completely wrong here? What the hell happened?
And most importantly, what is everyone's screen name for MSN? I have a bad memory for things like that, and I kind of need everyone's name back.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 10:23 p.m.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Bored bored bored bored.
I have no life, I swear. I've been sitting around in the house all day in my pajamas, I slept until like 11'ish. Which doesn't surprise me since I was on the phone until almost 1 in the morning.
I hate being at home on weekends. There's never anything to do. If I was at Grandma's, we'd probably bake cookies, and I could work on the puzzle, and generally not be bored. I don't know what it is about Grandma's house, but I'm never bored there, I'm content. When I'm home, I'm always trying to find something to do, to get my mind off the monotony, and the negativity.
Granted, other people have it worse off than I do, but the energy in this house is so friggin negative, I swear I could cut it with a butter knife. And it's a constant thing, it doesn't go away. It gets to ya after a while. At least at Grandma's house it's not negative, I don't care if she doens't have a computor, or if her VCR is older than I am. I like it there, it's comforting and relaxing. Whereas here at home, it's just negative and angry. Even if nobody's pissed off, the air just feels heavy and confining and negative and volitile. It's almost as if there's the smell of gas in the air and someone's about to strike a match. It feels like things can explode at any second.
It's especially noticable when I spend time somewhere where it's not negative, where it's comforting and peaceful, and then come home. It doesn't feel like home, honestly. It feels like I've been put up in a hotel somewhere but I have no money to pay, so I do chores to pay my bill. It feels like a temporary living situation. And I wish it didn't.
But, soon enough I'll be out of here. And I feel like such a whiny little bitch for this random rant, too. Because I know a lot more people who have a lot more problems than I do, and I'm just sitting here whining about how my house feels negative. But oh well... I guess that's just life for you.
I think I'm going to go now, blog hop or fling some cows or something.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 03:09 p.m.
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
Well, I saw Matt tonight for the last time until lord knows when. Yeah, it sucks. To say the least.
BUT, hopefully I'll be able to visit him a few times before August, and hopefully he'll be able to make it for the dance recital. Which is much more important to me than graduation, which I'm only doing for my familiy.
Hopefully school will take up most of my time until I'm used to him being gone again. It shouldn't take more than a few weeks, which is how long school will be. Then I plan on getting a job, working on my licence, and saving up some money for plane tickets. And, if I book them far enough in advance, they're cheap. Only a few hundred. Instead of like six hundred, which would suck ass.
So far I'm doing better than I thought I would. I haven't cried too much, not to the extent I did back in July. I just have to take things day by day, minute by minute, second by second. (Yeah I know, I missed a few time measurements there, sue me).
In any case, I really should go to bed, as I'm incredibly droopy... but I really don't want to. I must go blog hopping. I must get back in the blog hopping habit. It keeps me sane.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 10:57 p.m.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Oh yeah, the conversation I claimed blogging rights on the other day:
Jared: I like sex
Sara: I like applesauce
Jared: sex is like applesauce
Sara: How is sex like applesauce?
Use your imaginations to fill in the rest.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 10:43 p.m.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
SIMPLE QUESTIONS:
1.What time is it? 10:01 PM
2.What is your name? Niki, that's all you need to know.
3.What is your birthday? May 3
4.How many sibs do you have? 3 biological, 1 step, 1 soon-to-be in-law, and 2 "adopted" (best friends)
5.What are your sibs names? Courtney, Carrie, some brother whose name I don't know because I've never met him, Jennifer, Jason, Laura, John.
6.Do you have a job? no
7.If yes, where? -_-
8.If no to #6, Where do you wanna work? anywhere that I can make money that doesn't involve the removal of clothes
9.Do you have a car? no
10.What kinda car do you have/want? the kind that runs, preferably
FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
11.Movie: Dirty Dancing
12.Song: "When I'm Gone" and "Here Without You" both by 3 Doors Down
13.Band: Creed
14.Group: o.O *confusion*
15.Singer: Jewel, until she sold out that is
16.TV Show: Will and Grace
17.TV Channel: the History channel (I'm a geek)
18.Actor: Walter Matthau
19.Actress: Julia Stiles
20.Comic: Garfield can technically count as a comic, as he appears in the comics page of the newspaper... alright alright, so he's a cartoon.
21.Magezine: I don't pay much attention to magazines
22.Food: chocolate
23.Snack: chocolate
24.Drink: Alcoholic: strawberry daiqueries
Non/A: milk
25.CD-ROM Game: I don't play comp games, I just watch other people play them
26.Board Game: I'll get back to you on that one
27.Card Game: Liverpool rummy
28.Kid Game: SPUD
29.Number: 3
30.Cartoon: Garfield
31.Character: o.O
32.Disney Character: Simba
33.Color: blue
34.Hair Color: medium brown
35.Time of the day: night
36.Day of the week: Friday
37.Week of the month: not the one when I have my period
38.Month of the Year: August
LOVE LIFE ETC:
39.Do you plan on having children: yes
40.Do you want to get married: well I sure hope so, seeing how I'm engaged
41.How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: hopefully 25 or older
42.How old do you wanna be when your married: I'll be 18 when I get married
43.Would you have kids before marriage? hopefully not. But I don't think it's quite possible seeing how Matt's leaving the day after tomorrow, and I have my period right now. It'd be a little hard to pop out a kid before August.
44.What would you name the boy? I'm not sure, we've talked about boy names, but we can't think of anything yet.
45.What would you name the girl? Matt loves the name Rain, I like it too. He also loves the name Morgana. So, again, we don't know.
46.Are you a virgin?: no
47.If so, Do you plan on loosing your virginity ne time soon?: *blink*
48.Have you had oral sex?: yes
49.If not, Have you been past base 1?: I should certainly hope so, it'd be a little odd if I haven't o.O.... I wonder if that's possible?
50.Do you even know what the bases are?: -_-
51.Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): no, I have a fiancé
52.Do you have a crush?: nope
EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
53.Music/TV: music
54.Guys/Girls: guys
55.Green/Blue: blue
56.Pink/Purple: purple
57.Sleep/StayUp: stay up
58.Summer/Winter: summer
59.Spring/Fall: spring
60.Night/Day: night
61.Hangin Out/Chillin: aren't they the same thing?
62.Friends/Lovers: lovers (preferably of the Matt variety)
63.Cold/Warm: warm
64.Fast/Slow: depends on my mood
65.New/Old: old
66.Dark/Light: dark
67.Sparkle/Shine: shine
68.Peach/Plum: peach
69.Apple/Orange: apples
70.Laundry/Dishes: laundry
71.Christina/Britney: *puke*
72.Limp Bizkit/KoRn: eh, both I guess
73.Rock/Rap: rock'ish
74.Pop/R&B: *blink*
WHAT DO YOU THINK? (PUT WHAT FIRST COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU SEE THE FOLLOWING WORDS:)
75.Glass: window
76.Shake: a person
77.Club: weapon
78.Sing: songs
79.Loud: music
80.Garcia: beanie babies (I have no idea)
81.Hair: frizzy
82.Ching: chong
83.Money: evil
84.Work: stress
85.Play: hehe... he... *angelic look*
86.4002: graduation
87.Betty: boop
88.Sara: sazzle
89.Dog: Kaci (long story, don't ask)
90.Brain: I don't know any brians
91.Nick: McElroy, he was one crazy guy... I wonder if he's in Iraq?
92.Frank: B, the guy with the silver low-rider truck that he drives around thinking he's cool when he's really not.
93.AM: ugh, mornings, talk radio... evil'ness
94.FM: radio... stuff.
95.PM: fun
96.Morning: should start later in the day
97.Ball: bouncy
WHAT DO YOU THINK (WRITE WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FOLLOWING)
98.Eminem: The man is a genius
99.Rap: you're all going to shoot me for this, but it's starting to grow on me *ducks from flying tomatoes*
100.Teenagers: stupid stupid stupid people.... even though I am one, but that's besides the point.
101.Smoking: even stupider
102.Death: giving way for new life
103.Life: beautiful
104.Drinking: stupid
105.Bomb Threats: just plain pointless
106.Murder: why kill? why harm? why... am I being philosophical?
107.Suicide: again, why kill? why harm?
108.Fear: Is only in your mind, has power only because you give it power.
FRIENDZ: I hate these questions, but what the hell, I'm bored. Might as well piss someone off.
109.Who is your best friend?: Matt
110.Who is the best person to hang with?: everyone
111.Who is the sweetest person?: I know lots of people. Pretty much all my friends are really sweet, and Bri is sweet too.
112.Whos the cutest person: Everyone's cute in their own way.
113.Whos the nicest?: Everyone's pretty nice, and everyone's pretty bitchy too.
114.Whos the best to talk online with?: Everyo... I'm noticing a trend here.
115.Whos the most blonde: mentally or physically?
116.Whos the weirdest: oh god, there's no pinpointing who's wierder than who
117.Whos the craziest: again, no pin pointing
118.Loudest: alright, this one's a given, Snoot. But she's so damn cute
119.Quietest: I dunno, nobody's really all that quiet
120.Smartest: who the fuck cares?
121.Quickest: wow, I thought that said quietest again... now it just seems obscene, moving on...
123.Most Trustful: I don't know
124.Most Honest: *yawn*
125.Most Cheerful: okay, Im getting bored with this section, moving on to the next section.
Oh, I guess it was... done anyway. *blink*
LAST FEW (Pointless) QUESTIONS:
126.Are you glad it's almost done?: sure
127.Are you bored?: as all fuck
128.What kinda mood are you in right now?: bored, kinda tired, I think I'll go to bed.
129.Did you have a good day today?: afternoon, yes. Morning, hell no.
130.What are you doing tomorrow: Going to school, saying bye to Matt and wondering when the next time I'll see him will be, crying.
131.What did you do today?: worked on a paper for 7 and 1/2 hours because I'm a stupid fuck, watched Mr. Holland's Opus, Matt came to get me, we went to his house, watched 13 Ghosts, went to his grandmother's for dinner, went back to his house, watched that show about the super-models in the small towns, went home, sat on the couch in the living room with mom until she got bored and/or tired and went to bed, got online, got back off to call Matt back since I forgot he was going to call because I'm a stupid fuck, got back on, found this survey, filled it out. Random bathroom breaks here and there.
QUESTIONS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS 2 U:
132.Who sent this to you?: Sika
133.What do you think of this person: she's cute
134.Who do you think will be the first person to fill this out & send it back to you?: since I'm not sending it out, nobody
135.Who do you think wont even read it?: people who don't come to my blog, and most of those that do.
136.Do you want this to be done?: yes
137.Do you think this is the last question: I know it's not beccause I scrolled down in the email. but I don't feel like putting < BR > in a whole bunch of times, so I'm not going to bother putting the huge space between this and the next line. Actually, I think I'll delete the next line all together.
138.What time is it now?: 10: 27 PM
139.How long has it been since you started?: 26 minutes
140:Why is pickle juice green?: because it's not blue
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 09:54 p.m.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
*huge mental breakdown*
I just spent the last *counts* 7 and a half hours working on the government project that was due today. I realized at 5 this morning that I forgot to do it all weekend and it's due today. Which means I talked mom into letting me stay home to do it. If you don't do it, you fail government, simple as that. I really didn't feel like failing and doing it all over next semester when I'd rather have a job and some income. So I decided to sacrifice one day to make up for 10 weeks. Not too bad a trade off if you ask me.
Of course, if I wasn't the stupid fuck that I am, I wouldn't be in this situation in the first place. I don't know how I could have forgotten about it. We spent all week working on it last week. And I forgot. How the fuck could I forget??
I'm fucking stupid, that's how. Not just foolish, not just forgetful, just plain fucking stupid.
It's not a hard concept: Do this and you pass. Don't do it and you fail. Dunbar doesn't accept late work. Simple as that. It was due today, I should have done it over the weekend. I forgot to because I'm stupid.
It doesn't help that mom's pissed at me. She called about halfway through my work to see if I was done yet and if she should come get me so I wouldn't miss the rest of the day. Of course I wasn't, and then she started in on a lecture about how I have to pay more attention and that this won't happen again and all that bull-shit. As if I didn't already know that I'd fucked up big time.
Oh well, shit happens, it's in the past. All I can do is suck it up and deal with it. No matter what I do, someone's going to be pissed at me, might as well get used to it and move on.
From now on, I'm just going to do what I want to do and what I know I have to do to get by. I'm doing what will make me happy, because trying to make everyone else happy is just going to drive me insane. I don't feel like being insane.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 12:36 p.m.
Friday, December 12, 2003
Does this even work?
Stupid thing doesn't want to work >.<Niki fell off the face of the earth at 09:54 a.m.
Tuesday, December 9, 2003
Micah: I'm dead sexy
Tom: I'm just dead
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 10:33 a.m.
Tuesday, December 9, 2003
Stupid links
http://www.lifenews.com/
http://www.christiananswers.net/life/home.html
http://www.gargaro.com/noabort.html
http://dmoz.org/Society/Issues/Abortion/Pro-Life/Niki fell off the face of the earth at 09:47 a.m.
Tuesday, December 9, 2003
I'M ENGAGED!!!
He asked me last night, and it made me cry, and I all happy and such.
He was so cute, he was so nervous, he's adorable ^___________^
He took me to starbuck's when we were done shopping, which is where we went on our first date last year. He had me close my eyes, and he took the ring off that he'd given me for my birthday. Then he put the engagement ring on and told me to open my eyes. He looked me right in the eye and said "Nicole, will you marry me?". Of course I said yes, and I cried.
Then about 45 minutes later, we were sitting in my living room attempting to tell my parents. They took it better than I thought they would. At least they didn't freak out. Dad thinks we're too young. Mom does, too. But they didn't freak out or anything. So that's good.
We're going to Grandma's tonight to show her. I'm kind of scared about how she'll react. Papa especially, he can't keep his mouth shut. And I know he won't be happy. But he'll just have to deal with it.
Micah told me that it's not going to work out, which is what he's been telling me pretty much the entire time Matt and I have been together. Jared picked me up and twirled me around in a circle. Lau and Sika grabbed me and bounced o.O... Everyone else's reactions were pretty much the same. Shocked, saying things like "oh it's pretty, congratulations". Your basic polite crap while they're really thinking "it'll never work out, they're too young".
*shrug* Oh well, people will just have to get used to the idea that we're in love. I'm not giving up on him.
I have to go to a wake tonight. My great uncle died. I didn't know him that well, I vaguely know what he looks like. So I'm not too upset, but I know I'll probably cry when I get there. I always cry at wakes. I cried at Felicia's dad's wake, and I had never met the man. It's all the other sad people around who are crying, it makes me cry.
There's another one tomorrow, too. I'm not sure if I'm going to that one or not. John Spraigue (if that's how you spell it) died. He used to be the principal at the elementary school, and he was a friend of the family. But I'm not sure if I'm going to that one or not.
I should probably be working on my government resesarch thingie, but I really don't want to. Controversial issues and crap, like abortion, capital punishment, religion in public schools. Just a bunch of bull-shit.
But there isn't much else to say, besides the fact that I'm tired as hell. So I'm going to get going now, do some research, find some links. So yeah, if there's a whole bunch of links in here it's because I was too lazy to print them out and go to the other side of the room to get it out of the printer.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 09:43 a.m.
Monday, December 8, 2003
Archived and all that nice crap.
I figured I should probably do something on here, seeing how it's been about a week. Actually, I haven't been online in that long. I was beginning to forget what the internet looked like.
We had Shannon this weekend. She's so cute. I really don't want one. At least not yet.
Barbie has so much shit! Shannon's been getting lots of Barbie crap. She has a living room set, with a VCR. It actually came with VHS tapes that go in the VCR. It's insane. And of course, you have to assemble everything. The Barbie car that she got came with soda cans! They have Scoobie Doo barbies now. They come with Scooby. It's insane. Completely insane.
I hate Barbie, she's a stupid slut.
In any case, I should probably get around and go to bed here in a few. It's after midnight and I have school in the morning.
God I can't wait for Christmas vaca.
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Niki fell off the face of the earth at 12:09 a.m.
